I have no idea when it started. Or how. Or why. I just know that somewhere along the way, Valentine's Day became my nemesis. At some point and time, it became characteristic of a bully - relentlessly pursuing me with its cheesy hallmark cards, rows of teddy bears, dark red roses, balloons and chocolate. And … Continue reading Reclaiming Valentine’s Day
Companion
What would it mean to be a companion to myself instead of an adversary? These were the words that came out of the speaker's mouth at the Women's Retreat I attended this weekend. To be honest, I chose to only go to one speaker session, spending the rest of the weekend on more of a … Continue reading Companion
Cheer
The game is starting - the referee just blew the whistle. Where are they? I am embarrassed, sitting here on the bench behind the basketball team all by myself, wearing my green and white cheerleading uniform. I cannot even look at my mom, because if I look at her face, I am going to just … Continue reading Cheer
Winter Has Its Song to Sing
Winter has a song to sing. It's timbre is melancholic. It is guttural. It is a song that needs to be sung. And when it is sung, for many ears to hear, it allows for teary eyes of weary souls to lock and say to one another, "you, too?" There is beauty to Winter's Song. … Continue reading Winter Has Its Song to Sing
The Mask.
Masks. I own many of them. I have one that I wear called "The Performer". This mask is a favorite. I wear it often because it gives me an identity. It is one that is safe, that is well-respected by those with whom I come into contact. It is one that I have worked on … Continue reading The Mask.
I Arise Today.
When our daughter Bella was born with Congenital Nephrotic Syndrome (Finnish Strain), I wholeheartedly believed that not only does God give us more than we can handle, but that her disease and subsequent issues surrounding that disease, would be our one and only burden to bear for our lifetime. I mean, honestly. God would not … Continue reading I Arise Today.
Snarkaholic
I am a recovering snarkaholic. It started in college. To a certain degree, it was a defense mechanism, but it also was quite fun as I was really good at it and I found a great Snark Posse to which I belonged. My snarkaholism has ebbed and flowed over the years. There have been times … Continue reading Snarkaholic
The Dolphin Glass
Let me introduce you to the dolphin glass. This glass is the most coveted item in our kitchen. It is the source of insurmountable elation and contention in my household. You see - one of my children decided this was her favorite glass, and in giving it such high value and by holding it in … Continue reading The Dolphin Glass
Church.
Church and I have a very complicated relationship. Does that sentence resonate with you? I could list all the reasons for which that statement holds true. And in doing so, I am sure your response would be something like:: "I can totally see why you would want to stop going to church!" or "Wow, that … Continue reading Church.
Scars
Yesterday, on Facebook, a pastor wrote the following:: Don't hide your scars. They are a testament to God's grace and your fortitude. Our scars can even serve as encouragement and wisdom to many. When Bella had her broviac catheter inserted into her vena cava, one of my first questions to the surgeon was :: … Continue reading Scars